If I knew I would get nothing.
If I knew I was getting nothing It would be different then if I thought I was getting something then got nothing and was given constant opportunity to get something... If I straight up no give or take by forces that be; get nothing... I would obviously be a certain way.
Why would I be the way I was now if I would get nothing.
Here is what I'm trying to explain.
If I started and was told I was going to get nothing and entered the world and knew I would get nothing.
It would be different than if I entered the world, was told I would have something, constantly told I'd get something or that I can try for something then giving up because nothing allows me to have it then breaking the human soul enough for me to then go back to wanting my default of wanting…