Axer La

Anime where person is getting old & has no option but to luck out and have something to work, has many ideas really great, can't execute, yells at "himself" and hates he could've have anything when younger but couldn't because everyone wasted his time. Now feel music but doesn't want to do music but is doing it because its the only option after the world sees him as failure can't get job or get a job that pays like 2 cents because what his "family" has done to him has cause the system to see him as skitzo and he has to over come his own mind to know he is not but it is the world that is sick no matter how healthy it wants to seem for itself.

& his attitude is he is aware of his being, so that the idea is that, he knows he is not his body but also spirit also, not really, but claims to be the part of him that is mad and pissed off but is able to calm around pretty girls...

just to reject them because is annoyed as well, they don't do work, they just think he's cool but he sucks at talking to them so he just brushes them off nonchalantly.

Basically acknowledging emotions he has but seeks to not be in them.