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Not fat, fat but the non-essential supplements of pillage would increase my weight and I became self-conscious of it. At this point the anti-depressants as they said it was supposed to do in senses expanded–were making me notice even more about what would make me hate myself. My nose, my uneven hairline, my unablility to grow a beard, wearing glasses and further on the idea that I couldn't do anything about the life I was living because I had no choice but to give up on my dreams... also, my penis looks weird. That's not the full point though. I wanted to share this picture because maybe it'll motivate you. I still don't consider myself to kill for or drop dead attractive, maybe ever but I am happier with myself and the idea that one day I could be joyful of myself. I suggest conquering the mind little by little as bad as it seems, the background and subconscious... the everyday noise... the impossibility of knowing it is all too much to bare... and bare it because it is yours to bare and you can do it. How–

You start noticing, the little things, the big things, the things you don't notice; the things that bother you and the things you don't notice bother you. Notice what you're not noticing and notice yourself as someone who can overcome even if feeling not because everyday is another day you are making it work, so try to have more fun and try not to overstimulate yourself on the idea you have to get it all done at once or you'll never get better or you'll get better eventually. You hear take it day by day, Now you hear, take it moment by moment; NOT to say that but instead to say– –don't let what you learn on THIS NOW start of your journey have you to fall apart. You got this. I know I wanted to say that because It was overwhelming to me at times. I know that feeling around your heart, not the metaphorical one... even the one in your brain and whole body... I've also felt that something.

Don't try to hard

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