If I were god segment #1

A Rant. A truth. A reality, A moment of anger, when love is love for too long it turns to hatred.

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Something about how spirit cheating, accident and incorrectly linked strings have made me emotionless with feel.

If i were god segment –

I want to kill people.

I can also heal people by of the responsibility and irris.

I would also probably be alone and want to watch porn because I don't._Trust people or at least IF i were God i would be forced to trust. So it seems safer than to get screwed modern than nail.

I would want to prove my theories that I see everywhere in throng.

I want to not be yelled at for saying something someone else doesn't understand.

Have I be the misunderstanding to have the patience that I don't have to feel not embarrassed as I also force it at times accidentally to bad feel and would rather walk a cross than to exist in the same world as someone I've embarrassed myself in front of.

πæ‘«I'm not going to just trip on the side walk with the pretty girl driving by, I'm going to make sure I land on dog shit and eat it, throw it up and eat it again and trip on it like a banana peel is what i'd rather than just a ick because then it's a "gross..."

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And BTW, I had everything to do with that.

I'm the reason you're with your loved.

Also, I want people not to take my credit.

You did nothing.

I ran when I didn't want too and am still running.

You live life. I am life. You are living. I existed before you.

This has nothing to do with you.

This is about how no one can comprehend impossibility

I would like to not have to hold back or feel i have to hold back.

If you're expecting a baby like break a leg I would like to say I hope you eat your baby!

∂ø And mean it even though I don't actually want that to happen but want to wish the worse for you even as insignificant as a human is because of how humans failed.

You shouldn't exist.

I should be able to say that and not have anyone say anything in return or get mad at me or upset with themselves IF I do_t want them to be, because it is true.

I hate you.

I want my time to be made up for.

Missing my youth and wasting the time going in circles did not make me go–"Okay, well my 30's are going to be awesome" because I missed out on being dumb, young and in love. I was allowed to be stupid as all fucking shit though.

So how is my time made up for if I can't have everything now that my years when not having to worry about taking a wrong step and breaking my ankle arrive in age or youth activity.

{I wasn't even there. My body was moving but I only recognized one part as who I was. I was not there. Awareness was not given, I had to take it back.}

I deserve better.

You deserve to not exist.

It's like I have to repeat myself everyday.

It's gotten so bad I almost broke into full on rapping there for a second.

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Go viral over a blog post about me complaining about things people are too nervous or some shit to complain about.

Because I'm going to be embarrassed..

Someone will read this someday and i'm going to be embarrassed.

I don't trust any of you, and if I do I'm lying but if I am lying I can o_ly be telling the truth because I am forced to say I've grown and if I've grown I have but to move on and this no one is lying, you lie to yourself so why does it matter.

I am embarrassed that you won't understand me.

I am embarrassed because I can't explain fully why I'm embarrassed.

Im embarrassed because I'm angry that no one will listen to why I have become embarrassed due to the things I'm angry about that have me to be seen as lesser.

I hope somehow you are embarrassed.

||Curse my heart because I honestly hate how much I care that I hope you'll never feel embarrassed.||

I want to not feel anything but still be.

I don't want to exist if I don't want and exist, if I do want; I will.

To the furthest and nearest to whatever that could mean.

I don't want to live as god nor as human. I don't want to live as a rock or a tree or a robot or a moment. I want to exist in a way that has life work the way I believe it works because the way it works or the way others are building it-is garbage in comparison to how I would create it.

If those 7 days, I'd perfect if not for neith.

You're all doppelgangers.

I would like to not be sought for killing or rape for the things that even without emotion I still feel to not be hurt and once again meaning, acts of ations to be false blame even hate of a king.

Im Sari

I want to be insulting.

No anime moment but still be equal if fight with scaling of okay so this could be fun!

Not; I could lose things because fighting isn't fun to me if I can't be like a duck somehow managing to kill a t–Rex but not because of somehow but because the power is equal to equal not in equality but in a fashion of existence to taught whatever you may think the next part of the sentence could've been.

I want to talk.

I want to talk and not hold back or feel held back or feel judge if I saw something.

Parables and games aren't what I like.

Can I word off something poetic without someone calling me stupid or gay or looking at me like I am, even without shuddering not because im nervous but because or nervousness itself being nervous that I'm not nervous and so it has no choice but to have me to shudder so that nervousness is my only excuse to why I am In a pause?

Im offended.

Can I saw [not seen nor see say] the most beautiful thing or only when only in my room? Can I tell you I love you or do I have to wait 2-3 years? Can I tell you I hate you and come up with something so painful to say that it stabs you, some how reality feels my hate and it spawns a manifest sword and it stabs you.

I want to talk.

I say the most beautiful things and still I have to

"Hey"

When really I want to–

"There is weather, my soul suffers because it is cold yet I see the sun is out. I saw a pretty girl. I'm about to eat something exciting and I would love to tell you about it have our paths cross again, for now let us continue because small talk is all we have ever known- I have a poi

Then I stare off into the distance even though I am indoors.

Not to want someone

Not to need so_eone

Not myself and not anything else

I want to be able to have a good time and not have others be balanced out or exalted in their good times because of it and i do not want to have anyone hide evil within the good times I have.

Not evil to evil to evil

I posted this because it is important to know you shouldn't be embarrassed.

I am embarrassed.