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You are nigger! which is what black people do to paint white people as black to then feel more comfortable for instance. We came up with the word "Bluck" with my fellow african american or... french citizens; for white people. It is damn offensive. Makes me laugh and smile. Like they did to our people in the 1800s. Damn those blucks.

The idea here is that alone, I like to speak crazy. I may have a BIT more sense in front of people but the truth is that when people are alone they often stim or repeat or er in circles in their minds because of not being out of the loop or rat race as it is, because not being able to do what you want or move forward and live a life you can be happy about forces you into racism or sexism or and ism, even suckmycockism, that last one was a tweak in a way you know what i mean?

So when alone maybe I am just stimming my ass off being like

yodaling my ass off being like saying like random words like some stupid bullshit but to me I am just stuck there because I am unable to get passed the fact my life would be a 9-5 coming home and my best represtantion of adult freedom would be drinking.

You know what a tweaker is? Basically that. When alone in a room even me before being able to overcome myself tweaks out. I gave example in other post but just mumbling or pacing or studders or angry soft yelling fuckery and things you would never say in front of a person but me more a woman because when you have friend that are male most of the time they allow you to say whatever wild ass bullshit and if a girl i'm assuming they do the same but instead of being racist or whatever, they more talk about sex stuff. That is if they are brave enough because no one actually ever fully says what they are wanting to say. You can't just say you've thought about you're dogs dick out the random. I know. Whild thing to say...

What what if it helps me think better to say such nonsense. What if I am a little white boy at the age of 14 in my room stimming hard lets say no trauma but i hear something on the internet and I am tweaking out like drool spamming like Duhhhluhhhguhhh... and doing that really throat-y and gross.

The point is... you can at times think better when you do this.

I am not backing up stimming and it should be worked on but the motion of having a traumatic even happen and/or stimming because the frequencies of "do not speak" are sent your way to if I am spamming alone in my room because I am a loser child going ilikadaDehhhh I-like--a-the-dick... then obviously if i did not suffer it, them someone else would have and the frequency is sent my direction. If i did and felt blind or unable to tell anyone not even feel blind but unable to process thought as a young child, then I would spam it and not even process that it was due to something that happened. All you know is you're a loser. Basically I made that point to say, you can spam out and still be a good person. just because you yell nigger loud when no one is home or decide to twitch your ass off when no one is watching or tantrum in your bed before getting up for work... even more exteremems of ssaying something like I like fucking my ass and little girls while watching scooby doobie smoking a doobie and having a dog like her asshole and my balls at the same time– its like.... okay so the freuqnecy or and i that fucking broken? No, I am obviously being given an EMERGENCY topic to write upon and here I am writing upon it... because I was stimming to an extent of how I am stuck in a room and no one believe i am smart because the system as labeled me as absolutely everything a retard is because that is what they see me as. Even now i am opening myself to attack but to you openly as well because this is how I can be, how people can be and even if I don't mean what I say alone there is truth in the resonance of another place in connection even if it is a darker side of me i do not like to accept, motion or not, i have not nor would just yell at someone for no reason nor cause to hurt... I don't like even thinking about putting someone through what I.

Yet... remember this talk was about just saying or something WHATPINGERRANEEE

and constant circles and from that... maybe.. MAYBE I'll find a topic there that makes everyone be like "Okay... I get it..." Because you understood something here right?

BEEFYNWITMAHCHICKWHALIMINJayuhh Can you say this in 7 different ways. Here is one of my 5 million wives

I said it like Whalalalalghhlllllleh....

https://video.wixstatic.com/video/058899_e3fa8c6317e342cba6f9c20e57694346/720p/mp4/file.mp4

Because I would be embarrased to tweak in such a way but damn I'm glad I'm opting to be dead inside that way if I ever get lucky enough to not be a loser I don't have to love or care and you will know it is something through me that does. There is no way, I used to have someone when younger to tweak out with when influence of the world effected me to be a strange weirdo that couldn't look at a girl.

I hope I am okay because, I wish I had someone to talk to back then. Remember. You are useless!

I, We Can = Wiccan.