The backrooms and psychwards

The salt in the psychward hospitals are not for the food to taste better, it is so that the food becomes real and not holographic.

In places where focus is less put and regulated because of–

the things there are less solidified... meaning...

Somethings while in there are less essential or substance filled...

–even the dark matter ignores it to an extent of ex ae.

Because the system cannot understand you, immediately you are seen as less and to be fixed when they do not break a clock and use the parts for another clock, this is not fixing a clock.

Pig organs only let the human last 3 weeks for instance...

Something more dire and to no excuse or defense of the cause, you must know... taking the mind of someone and seeking to manage it, is a broken theory if fish in barrel and shooting constantly just to "fix" to break. The gears needed to be rectangular, not triangular.

Then so, you as what makes you tik is hard to reset because you don't know how to get the gear of substance forced onto you out.

Ask to scratch pills to a percentage or amount of 1/4 to 1/8th, but you must be certain of what you say because you basically have to say it is what your body can handle.

The truth is it probably is.

They don't know. They just assign it.

Irresponsibility comes when you assign a one size pill fits all.

I am witness and experiencer of how they hold you down and inject you if you do not take the pills. There is no arguing or reasoning. There is no running. Make sure you have witnesses and reach out to someone beforehand about the unfair treatment.

The techs and nurses are basically there just to watch you fight and scratch at yourself.

You will survive.

Try not to be a different person.

You are you, but they want you to be them and have you to fight and scratch at others like they do with your psyche.

It is important to find someone you can talk too that will genuinely visit and talk to the staff or argue on your behalf.

I had no one, but if you do or can reach someone.

They can call the police and talk to them.

The idea is, that when you yourself call the police, you are already seen as schizo and bi-polar.

You are already a retard in the eyes of the system.

If someone conversates on your behalf however–

"Irresponsibility comes when you assign a one size pill fits all."

–It is seen someone cares and you are given a little more humanity.

They enjoy experimentation.

MAKE SURE,

They give the insight to holistic ways of healing even mention doctors that use natural remedies.

Even meditation or sleeping.

They will let you sleep all day if you have note.

If you are able to convince meditation is more powerful that what they are taught, them being doctors and you coming from a place of how the mind to to calm... even if not believed in full... you can at least start experimenting with controlling your environment, thoughts, quietness, stillness, and to if it, just relax more...

Get out, don't fall for the same shit.

Think a bit more...

If you have a sword swing it for yourself and don't let anything else swing it for you.

My dream is to fix it.

The way people are taught they are broken...

You are not broken.

They do not understand, they were broken a long time ago.

[Don't repeat this line, they do not understand such word.] {yet}

[I fought the mirror so you could mediate on yourself.]

|If you feel like you are not able to get back to the mind state you were at or dying, please try calming the mind first.|

{It can be difficult, I know what it is like to pace around knowing there is everything to do and still just being to anxious to do anything except pace around and be living instead of alive.}

Find your thoughts.

What are your thoughts.

I ought your thoughts not nott but nott to light if that is what you may find to save your mind.

You feel terrible or nothing or less... or "better" because a lie you are telling yourself because they have it be...

Eat something new. Something you wanted to eat for a long time and just couldn't.

For me it was Vietnamese pho.

Meditate... just sit there and hear the thoughts if NOT meditating.

WATCH how your body moves... on it's own.

Manual breathing? Manual everything but we think its just breathing.

I had to take Lsd to find my way or at least that was my path, I want to see if you can find the regular path because, It would help someone else to know the story of how you over came the mind they sought to put in your mind.

I once heard, medication is food; food is medication.

When I couldn't eat... when I needed a soda to get down vegetables and/or toss the plate completely because I didn't even want to stomach or mouth the foods–

This was medicine.

It was exactly what I needed. If you can convince the your psyche to improve food to the individual and care truly, CARE.

If medication is the food then it is what they feed you that is what they claim the nourish.

The food is what you then don't take into account to every bite, so eat something you like...

because it matters.

Do something new.

You don't like going outside? I didn't I needed to smoke weed to step out.

We like the outside... we don't like the inside... its a battle...

Do something... new, because you'll find a piece...

a fragment of your mind if you seek for it and it'll help you see what you are trying to build for yourself.

Whatever they took, you will receive more than what they think they have of you.

Care.

For yourself.

Buy a cup of coffee even thought you HATE coffee... buy a banana at a convenient store because its suspiciously too convenient...

Buy soup you want because you always eat the soup someone you dislike or doesn't fully understand how to care for you makes and hate it. At least this way, it was your decison to eat something you wanted even if same category in a way.

It'll be explained as you collect the peices.

Each day can be difficult, but remember; you can always do something to make someone look at you and say... "this could've been me."

Not toward pity but understanding that peace is no where if one doth not pick up their own pieces... even if it is no fault of your own and everyone else's.

Go. Eat.