Why being cool is important

I was eating pho.

A kid walked in with his parents.

I often sit at this spot trying to avoid looking at the TV and not seeking to notice the people much.

Before age 26 I had no proper clothing in sense of fashion.

I work shirts with no graphics or with designs that were very–'this wasn't bought, this was made for someone who isn't valuable.'

Trust, you know what I mean by these kind of shirts.

I hate I had to change just for someone to maybe look at me as valuable but the talk is about why looking cool is valuable differently than just to have someone think you are worthy of being loved.

The kid was waiting for his parents to get the order they ordered and he seemed to have automatically drifted to me. I don't know if he had a rubik's cube in his hand but my imagination is telling me he did even though I do remember him fidgeting with something.

It made me remember being a kid and wanting the people I thought that were cool to think I was cool as well.

Even so, the kid was there and I now felt– "Okay, I'll look after him for now since the mother seems to be busy."

So I relaxed and continued to eat my soup, controlling my slurps and the way I ate to make sure when he went on his way he would be safe.

I have reverse angel fangs and a bridge piercing.

Sometimes I wear decent clothes I have like 5 outfits I like wearing.

I like to be cool to myself but if others see me as cool, I auto hate myself and them; yet if it is a child then, sure kiddo, I hope somehow I can keep you safe.

Kids trust what is cool.

If you are cool... by the way, now is a good time to read the conditional.

I REFUSE TO BE THE REASON SOME PEDOPHILE GETS "LUCKY" AND LEARNS LURING OR SOME SHIT."

If you are cool, then the kids will see you like someone who can protect them.

That's one of the things I wanted to do.

I wanted to protect them.

There are other instances of this similar thing happening here, as I said; I normally eat in this same spot. Kids go look at the fish and plants and I am just seated there making sure eyes don't wander or that I feel the kids are safe.

Random instance, no one normally sits by me but one night someone did and it felt for a moment I had a little sister or a daughter and for a moment I ... even if hard to explain, I got to love her. I noticed things, I called things out, I reported to what I believe and it was a lovely dinner but I guess I just wanted myself to know that for a moment I got to love someone that is never going to remember me because I am just a random person.

If I look cool, I am still just a person.

Still, I hope you're safe Cherub-belle! (:

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It let me feel an essence of acknowledgement that had me to realize the child was standing in front of me so that the angels could say "I am here" 'please care for a moment'.